Friday, February 26, 2010

Right Now- On A Break

If you've been through fertility stuff, you'd be familiar with the famous "taking a break" from trying for a child. I am in one of these right now. I hate them and I love them. I hate that I am not doing anything actively in terms of fertility treatments, but I love that I don't have to think about shots, bloodtests and counting the days. I hate that I feel like I might be wasting precious time, but I love that we can enjoy things without the stresses of living in that rollercoaster-ride of fertility cycles.

To be honest, it hasn't been much of a break anyway. I have had a few tests to go through to try and figure out my three early miscarriages, one of which was supposed to be about my uterus, but they seem to have found more 'mysterious' things- a shadow by one of my ovaries. I was hoping it'd be simple but now I am waiting for an MRI to look at everything. whywhywhy.

Feels like every bit of progress we make, this is what I see:

Meanwhile, we are trying our best to enjoy our summer in Auckland. It has been hot but oh so nice. With work commitments and other mad things that have come up, we haven't been able to do a whole lot, but we live close-ish to the beach and feel pretty fortunate to be in such a gorgeous place. I love New Zealand summers.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Where Do I Start?

I've been wanting to do this for ages, but I've hesitated. Something about being vulnerable that makes me nervous. I guess the easiest is to start with the standard intro. My name is Sas (I'll just keep it short for now) and I live in New Zealand. I'm not originally from here but I moved here some years ago. This is my current home. I met my husband here and we have been married for five years.

I'm new to blogging. Can you tell?? My idea for this blog is just to share some of my life, in hope that it would be like a friend to those who are going through similar things- or those who are close to someone who is. I would like to be a part of your support system, as I know how it can feel some days. This blog will contain my random thoughts on infertility and loss. It will also contain thoughts on God and spiritual things from a Christian-perspective as, for me, these are all related to each other. I will try my best to be focused but some days it might also be about shopping and other distractions I have.

So... welcome! Please feel free to comment (and to tell me how to use this better).